Alright, here's something that is frightening, this coming morning I will be outside in the cold for six hours, if I am lucky. I am not sure how i am going to make it, really. I have nothing, to be honest. Everything I have is locked up in a apartment that needs to get paid for and everything. Which, incidently, is why I am going to be standing outside of HELP of Southern Nevada freezing, because I refuse to be homeless when i have gainful employment. More over, it's the week of Christmas, I have to fight, and pull, and pry and deal with things that i think that I should never have to deal with. I really can't understand anything. I have nothing, I need nothig but the money to cover a couple of weeks so that I can use my pell check. it's maddening. oh well, here's to the cold, Here's to the hope that I have, and here's to the Spirit that has always pulledme through, may it hold up for jsut a little bit longer.

Oh, and sidenote. Te peopole you love are those that get to you more than anyhting. I miss my boy. I miss my frieds. andI miss the other side. Anyone that knows me knows what that means. well, except for the other side.

i lvoe my family. i lvoemy friends. hell, I even love my exwife, and know that I hcare because No One has the power to piss me ff like her. if I didn't care, I don't think that it would bother me. so.. here's to caring.

Peace out. of.. and you know... There's this person that if they weren'tso fricking crazy, I'd love her for sure. oh.. and if I hada better grip on my situation.. it's coming son! Yippee!!!!! I lvoe my boy. Love him love him love him love him ! teaching him Risk! it's awesome.